A Heart that Hopes

A Heart that Hopes

This has been an emotionally difficult time for me. Last night was the worst night but lately I have been feeling spiritually heavier than usual. I know that it is mainly because my mind is moving a mile a minute. I have been trying to deepen my introspection, search my intentions, evaluate my thoughts more critically, etc. In the attempt to be more thoughtful I am becoming more observant. I am noticing subtleties, slights, patterns, words… I am emotionally sensitive, not in a whiny bratty way, just perceptive. I know that I am already prone to be empathetic but the feelings that come from others have been more overwhelming than usual because I am processing through my own issues and needs. I have been keeping to myself more and I can say that it is making me more prayerful which is NEVER a bad thing but nevertheless it is still a little rough.

All I can say is thank God for hope.

With life coming at me full speed like a locomotive through all trials, issues, hardships I find that hope is like the brightest of lights at the end of all tunnels. I can honestly say that without faith and hope I would be lost.

Hope basically means a feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen or want of something to happen or be the case. There are 144 bible verses with the word hope in them. In my research I found the following extract:

"Hope can sustain one through trials of faith, human tragedies or difficulties that may otherwise seem overwhelming. Hope in Hebrews 6:19 KJV is seen as "an anchor of the soul". Hebrews 6:19-20 in The Message version states: We who have run for our very lives to God have every reason to grab the promised hope with both hands and never let go. It’s an unbreakable spiritual lifeline, reaching past all appearances right to the very presence of God where Jesus, running on ahead of us, has taken up his permanent post as high priest for us."

WOW!!! To me that means that no matter the situation, no matter how things look or even how they feel, we are to hold tight to our hope in God and never let go. That hope is our "unbreakable spiritual lifeline". This is the most wonderful thing I have read all week.

In my heart, hope is like a constant, persistent whisper. My mind complains but then the hope that resides in my heart whispers: Cat, try again... You can do it... Cat, get up and do better... Don’t give up, you’re getting stronger... God has your back... Trust in God for this... You will make it... There are times when my overactive imagination drowns out the whispers and they are just a humming sound in the undercurrent, but that hope is always present.

My hope is persistent, not because of me but because of God. My faith is in God’s omnipotence and in knowing that His power can overcome anything. My hope isn’t riding on my ability or my knowledge or my power, but in God’s. I am so glad that I do not have to rely solely on myself because I am an utter mess. My hope is built on the foundation of God’s track record. He has never failed nor forsaken me. I believe that a heart that hopes in God cannot be destroyed.