This is just a quick post to get some thoughts out.
Sometimes I feel like I am
in a battle for my heart. It’s a weird way to put it but some days are just tougher
than others. I live from my heart… Consciously, unapologetically. Every
hug, every text, every call. I am MUSHY and I am okay with that. The struggle with living from the heart
is trying to decide when to guard it and when to give it. Typically when something is on my
heart to do I try not to hesitate. I realized years ago that while I can’t be on 100%
pour out mode I also can’t close off. I had to learn wisdom with it.
Sometimes I feel super weird like come on Cat… no one wants to hear / read this mushy sh!t but I normally do it anyway… with as much
sincerity as I can. I hope it is received through the sincerity.
Today I’m struggling with feeling too much. Maybe my brain
booster vitamins are working. I see myself as being a big a$$ walking heart. Literally a heart with legs. My anchor to
reality…. Even the heart has ribs for protection so guard a little.
As I find my way through
this crazy world of beautiful souls AND manipulators, altruists AND consumers I will continue to be a little more syrupy than necessary in the hopes that someone
truly needs it.
I know it’s a cold world out here and I’m striving to be some warmth.
- Catherine Elizabeth
